I want to know what your life has been like without me.
I want to know how you are feeling and what you think
of me now. I want to remember more of how things 
used to be with you, but I cant. I cant even remember
you saying a word.  All I remember are the motions.
We went through the motions & what is left? silence.
You are silent. I am silent. We just glance at eachother
now. And we shift our eyes back to the present and
pretend like nothing happened but secretly I keep
thinking of you.

Cherry Festival was good.
Very good.

I walked around with D and
Jerika all night. Jerika is a very
cool girl; nothing like i expected.

We went to Cassies car and
got high out of a KAZOO.

Wow, its cool to be high at
a festival. The lights, oh the
lights<3




Im getting drunk tonight.

Oh how Im wasting away.
Its summer-Ill be good by fall.

I cant wait for the Cherry Festival.

I cant wait for my birthday.

I cant wait till Friday.

I cant wait till school is over.

This past weekend has been one of
my best yet.

Stephanie spent the night on Friday
and finally, we are getting closer.
Jesse made a move on me @ his
house while Nelson was there.
Icky. 

Saturday night I had Maggs spend
the night and my parents didnt even
know she was staying. I made a fool
out of myself at Jesse's. Still, it was
a good night. Drank a bit.

Sunday I got to see D, I was so excited!
She is such a cool girl. We went to see
Tim's new apartment. I wore uggs. I
had a good time. Except Im never hanging
out with Tim when he is drunk ever again.
He gets all perverted. He is supposed to
be my good friend. Im not interested.
On the other hand, a very cute boy caught
my eye this night, and I have spent every
minute since, talking to him.  

Monday. NO SCHOOL! It was such a good
day, though I was supposed to get some
money, and I never did. 
I fell asleep in my moms car while it was
sitting in the drive way.
I talked to HIM all night :D

Boy, you make me smile.
You make me smile like
a little girl on a summer day.

last night was super fun.
Mags & I went to the bay to see Nelson
and Jake. Jake has to be the most shy
boy I have ever met. All he ever wants
to do is play the guitar and laugh at
everything anyone ever says...but he
barely talks. Nelson looked extra cute
wearing Wilsons glasses but Mags stole
them and I cant decided who looks better in
them. 
We played basketball in Nelsons front yard
for about an hour. I suck at basketball. But
Nelson is a baller but just because hes tall.
Jake thinks I have way too much energy. I
kept hugging him because I knew it made
him feel uncomfortable. It was great. =]

Nelson's momma made us tacos. They were
yummy. I was eating mine on the top bunk of
Nelsons brothers bed, and i grabbed nelsons plate
which still had a taco on it, and jumped off the bed
onto another bed, where i dropped the taco on his plain
white sheets. I felt so bad, but Nelson told his mom he did
it and he just kissed me and told me it was ok. I cant
help it-he is just so amazing. 

I have his shirt on today. 
Today is going to be great.